Runnin'... Runnin'! And I'm not tired yet!

I was running late for the train this morning. After a restless and sleepless night, I had kept hitting the snooze like it was a buzzing fly. Bolting out of bed, I tried to hurry through the "beauty" routine. By the time I had left the house it was 7:10am and I needed to get money at the ATM and get coffee to make change to park. Mind you, my train was at 7:22am and it takes a minute to get there. That's when I decided to go to the next station, hoping to out run the train.

Lord knows, I was sweating worse than an alcoholic in a bar at happy hour. After fighting through a weird flow of traffic, I finally arrived at the station. As I parked my car, I was dreading having to scurry. Prior to working out, I had never been able to run fast enough to make the train. In fact, there had been a couple of times where I had plumb given up before even making the effort. It was rough. It was sad. It was heartbreaking.

Today, however, I had no time to dwell on the past. I had to get on that train. Grabbing my bag and my coffee, I quickly locked my door and proceeded to book it down the row of cars. My steps were even as was my breathing. Nothing felt tight or hampered. All I kept thinking was make this train, make this train. I dumped my dollars into the slot and proceeded to run across the street to the set of stairs that so often foiled me. Rounding the corner and up the ramp, I made it onto the train with seconds to spare.

That's when I took stock of a few things.

Each step I had taken was a run. I didn't drag behind. The breathing I was doing was neither a huff or a puff, it was even. My chest didn't heave nor did my heartbeat slam into my breastbone as it had done many times before. To sum it up, people, I wasn't dying like I had before. It was daunting not to feel that way. It was a scary relief knowing that I could actually run and not feel like I was going to drop. Wow.

It is moments like these that I am so thankful for getting off my ass to rebuild myself. They seem insignificant to so many in the world, but it is big for me. Pray for me, y'all.